The first edition of this was published not long after Ted was finally sentenced to life in prison in Florida. The second edition was published at least partly in response to the below film entering production, which is allegedly based on this book but without Liz’s permission. This book is brave in it’s nakedly admitting how codependent Liz was with Ted, and by not retracting statements in the second edition like that Liz still loved Ted, despite his being convicted of horrible crimes. The book is significantly told through the lens of (and sometimes overshadowed by) Liz grappling with her own sense of morality after growing up in religious household and being a single parent in the early ‘70s, as well as working through her own substance abuse issues. There are a couple of specifically noteworthy things in this book that are not depicted in the film and that have not been widely documented elsewhere:
- Liz and Ted go rafting, and he casually pushes her out of the boat and then dispassionately watches her as she struggles to get in without his help. This is one of a couple of occasions where she mentions him seeming to have “dead eyes” and look like a different person.
- On a different occasion, while Liz sunbathes at Green Lake, Ted paddles in his raft while Liz’s daughter swims. The girl attempts to reach the raft to take a break, and Liz watches Ted paddle just out of the girl’s reach, over and over again, while the girl attempts to reach the raft. He later says he didn’t realize the girl needed help.
- Most damning, Liz’s daughter wrote an afterword to the second edition of the book. She describes multiple occasions where Ted was sexually inappropriate with her. This seems to be a very recent revelation and is not documented anywhere else.